Today's 'heart things, heart strings' theme for the letter Q in the A to Z challenge is Questioning.
I hope you read
my short post on non-conformity vs. "normal" ... what is that?! - http://xpressyouressence.blogspot.ca/2015/04/a-to-z-challenge-n-is-for-normality-no.html - then you will understand when I say
it is important to be of a questioning nature.
Now, I don't necessarily mean questioning everything (as I tend to seemingly do) as in being curious (as I am). ;) More so rather in terms of
questioning the status quo, and yes, this may include
questioning authority (for those in power are not always right you know!).
What does my chosen word for the day
have anything to do with the heart? Good question! I'm glad you asked! ;) Let me explain ...
I had mentioned
in my post two days prior (http://xpressyouressence.blogspot.ca/2015/04/a-to-z-challenge-o-is-for-openness.html) about the
heart either being in a contracted or expanded state. (I believe this has been proven scientifically, though I am too bothered to look it up as otherwise this will be a longer post.)
When you question, you may do so out of fear possibly; however, in doing so you are acting in spite of being fearful. And by stepping into the fear, you can overcome it.
The result of doing this, including the possibility of receiving answers,
can lead you to a higher state emotionally, that is, one of openness, a state that expands the heart.
I know this not just intellectually.
I understand it at a deep level because of one experience in particular.
To make a long story very short, I left a certain church (no names mentioned) and later organized (and) traditional religion that I didn't realize at the time had me
feeling for the most part repressed, not to mention emotional and mental constriction and contraction. Imagine a boa wrapped around my body, especially my neck and heart area.
After I left - I had twice previously -
I felt a sense of lightness as if I had loosened a chain or noose attached to me.
I also came to realize that
I was starting to feel happy, genuinely happy, more than just moments here and there, but lasting hours, even days in a row. That was unusual for me up to that point in my life.
I had thought I might go back one day; however, after
my spiritual awakening (http://xpressyouressence.blogspot.ca/2012/12/well-i-did-it-again-i-cant-believe-it.html),
I knew in my heart I could never go back. It would be like stepping back into time, i.e., going backwards, not moving forwards, evolving.
I became aware of the reasons why I had joined the church in the first place and the reason I could no longer return (as mentioned above).
In hindsight, I believe that
I was not able to question authority or else I would be going "
against the church." That was a big no-no! And in my heart, I no longer believed that the church was true as it claimed to be.
If I did not question my beliefs (which I did), none of this would have happened. However, I have no regrets.