Monday, September 27, 2010

People Patterns and Life's Lessons

This past month and-a-half has been quite stressful, at times, extremely so for me. My roommate and I, mostly with my efforts at posting and reposting ads on craigslist, were in the search of a third roommate to share this big house we live in.

It has been an interesting process. We were initially attracting people with either a mental health disability or people who were affiliated somehow, like working in the field for example. We also attracted really young people, around age 19 to 21, mostly males. And the other pattern was people from overseas, like France, Ireland, and Australia, who wanted to work here for a certain period of time.

I was curious about all this. I thought, ‘What is happening that these patterns seem to recur?'

Now I do know about the law of attraction. By the way do you? If you’ve heard about or seen the movie ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Byrne, you know what I’m talking about.

Michael Losier is also an expert - a local from Victoria - on the law of attraction, speaking professionally to groups about this (spiritual) principle. I recently re-heard him speak a few months ago after many years when I initially met him. It’s interesting how sometimes we need to re-hear a message before we get it or in order to re-learn and re-experience it, but in a different way.

You see, when I heard him speak recently I was relatively ‘on fire.’ At that time I was working on launching my co-creative children’s choir and was working on marketing in order to manifest or draw people to join. Actually, I should say recruit parents who would register their child(ren).

I know at times I can be what I call a ‘powerful manifestor’ as I have seen and experienced it many times in my life even for days and weeks at a time. However, recently with all the stresses (some not mentioned here) and lack of sleep in part because of it, I know I wasn’t at my best. This probably accounts for the turnout we had of potential roommates that declined or we did for one reason or another.

In the end, my roommate decided to move out because she was practically living at her work as a live-in caregiver. And for myself, I decided the same after she informed me of the news. The (main) reason: if it was challenging (enough) finding one roommate, did I want to bother finding another (two roommates in total)? A couple? Friends? No, definitely not!

If I had trusted myself, i.e., my intuition, I might have had the opportunity to live in this beautiful-looking place with what would work for me according to the advertisement I recently saw on craigslist. However, I didn’t and my roommate’s news came only a day later. If only! Too late now!

Thus, I highly recommend or admonish taking at least this one lesson from my experience: Always, always heed your intuition. Trust it. It guides you for a reason or reasons you may not know.

That’s interesting I say that now because I realize as I’m typing this that I felt guided to this home where I live (and have been for 1-1/2 years). That’s another story! But I’m keeping this short (since I’m actually combining two stories here and don’t want to get too long-winded).

And when I say all this, I am ‘listening’ to and heeding my words. I need to remember too, to trust again: myself, my intuition, the universe. Follow my heart and let go of my mind. That’s what I need to learn and re-learn. Perhaps that’s the lesson I’m to learn here?

Monday, September 13, 2010

At Odds

Recently I have been posting ads on craigslist (www. in order to find a suitable roommate to replace our previous roommie who got married.

I discovered in the process that my roommate and I were at odds about our final result. I eventually had to ask her what was going on. I wondered when I was getting a ‘yes’ she would say ‘no.’ I found out that she wanted a male, different in terms of interests and/or occupation, and growth, while I wanted a female, similar interests, and harmony. Now how do you compromise on gender?! (Ruff! Ruff!!)

During the interview process, I somewhat reluctantly agreed to meet the son of a friend of hers who has a mental health disability. Now I didn’t know that about him initially. However despite that, I immediately got a ‘no’ as soon as I saw him inside of our front door, then when I shook his hand, and again later when we were talking with him.

I ended up going against my better wishes and judgement and agreed that he move in feeling somewhat pressured. There were a few times during the month where he would call and show concern for my needs (being a light sleeper for example), but when this occurred the last Friday before the end of the month, a red flag went up for me.

This time, I didn’t feel right so I spoke with his mother briefly and then left a message for him. He called me back later that night but I decided I wanted to sleep on it. Then with an extremely busy Saturday having our carpets cleaned and two appointments, I didn’t have time to phone him nor could hear his two messages that he had left me. I was also still undecided.

All of a sudden a woman came to mind. I felt the need to contact her to get an objective opinion as she is extremely intuitive. I barely told her anything not even the person's name when she proceeded to tell me something that confirmed my restlessness that I had felt most of the past month (in August). When I finally heard her answer and got the ‘no,’ I realized that my intuition had been guiding me all along. It was heeding me, whispering to me in the form of my restless heart, mind, and spirit.

I felt lighter, like a weight had lifted off me. And I remembered a way to know if a decision is right or not: imagine what would happen if you follow through with a decision (in this case if he moved in) and sense how your body/mind feels. This also confirmed to me the ‘no’ that I received right from the start.

How many times has this happened to you (where you don’t heed the call)? It happens a lot to me. Even though I am extremely intuitive, this time – as most times - I was too much in the middle of it all, in the thick of things that I couldn’t see or feel with clarity.

My intuition is always right and I mean that sincerely. I’m not kidding. It’s just that I don’t always pay attention to it as I ideally ‘should.’ It would save me a lot of trouble, time, heartache, frustration, angst, worry, you name it. And not only on my end, but the other person(s) on the other end as well.

So, learn the lesson from me so you don’t have to go through pain and turmoil. Trust your first impulses, your instincts, your intuition however it informs you. Trust me. Trust yourself!

p.s. While posting this, my roommate and I are still on the hunt of a roommate. I got a ‘yes’ to two men, but both backed out for different reasons, one of whom I thought was a perfect fit. Time will tell...